Why I 'tri'

I do it for a thousand reasons that perhaps boil down to: the heart that pumps my blood is strong. It dreams, and cries, and laughs. It loves and hopes. As a young girl,  I felt exactly the same way as I do know. I also liked sports very much. Soccer was my favorite! But I was a girl... you know how it goes. I not only internalized sexism but racism as well. My body, my eyes, my skin, my hair were just not the right color, the right size. .. and so the story goes. By the time I was 19, I had bulimia (I didn't recognized it at the time) and with that comes depression (not to mention asthma, extremely painful knees, and of size 16).

What force was able to pull me out of the hole? Love for my brother (who was adopted and was born with some physical deformations). I wanted him to love himself, to not hate his body, to have a future,  to have hope. (This is another long story in itself ). I realized that I couldn't ask him to love himself if I didn't love myself. And so I began to seek after my own healing. After my brother came my sons... oh how I loved my body then! But then came my divorce... and once again I saw myself going back to the same hole.

Then, I made a choice: no way! Not going back to the depression,  the bulimia  the hopelessness,  the darkness... nope! I was going to find the answer. .. I was going to fight for my sons because they deserved more than a functional mother, they deserved a fulfilled mother that is overflowing with hope and peace.

It is love that drives me... passion for a better world, commitment to my own healing and peace, and therefore, the healing and peace of all.

Somewhere I read a bumper sticker: 'born to tri'. That's me: born to live, to keep trying, to keep learning, to not give up the search for love, peace, and harmony... no matter the circumstances (with family or without, with man by my side or alone, with money or broke), my heart, my soul are far too free to be constrained. 

Crossing the finish line fills me with such freedom to express all the power that flows within.

That's why I do it: I was born to tri!